Tuesday, February 21, 2006
Fountain
By Ramone - February 12, 2006
At the beginning of February I'd recently begun really discovering Him as my place of rest, my place of just feeling "whew!" and leaning on Him, laying down & being myself (this picture is about that). But one night I was being tempted hard after a night work. I searched for that place of rest, of where I can be myself, where I can lay down, and I confess it was difficult to find it because of the assault.
I don't know what happened next or what came first, but I saw this picture of a, and at the same time my spirit came through and made the decision to rest in Him (I, my spirit, rose up and by choice overcame the feeling that was holding me down). At the same time it was also clearly and totally His deliverance. It was and still is wonderful to rest in Him.
Some days later I realized I didn't actually understand the picture, so I asked Him to please show me what the fountain means and why I saw it when He delivered me. I looked up several scriptures about fountains (Zechariah 13:1, Psalms 87:7, John 7:38, John 4:14, Isaiah 35:6, etc.) but while they were all beautiful, they weren't what He was saying to me through the picture. Then the answer came:
"Above all else, guard your heart, for it is the wellspring of life."
(Proverbs 4:23)
Through the picture and when He delivered me, He was letting me know that *He* is my heart's guard. I couldn't guard my heart, but Jesus was now telling me & promising me that He guards my heart. Thank You, Jesus!
One day soon after I was actually afraid of going home and wanted to detour for fear of being alone with my thoughts. But He said to me, "No, I'm your heart's guard; You're not alone." When I can't guard my own heart, when I'm afraid of my weakness, You're there! You're my Dad, You'll protect me from me, from the enemy, and from all else there may be.
The fountain, He said, is actually me. It's us, you and I. "You are a spring enclosed, a sealed fountain... a garden fountain, a well of flowing water." (Song of Songs 4:12-16) Sometimes, no, many times it's hard to believe I'm a fountain of clear, clean water, but I am. And this is the inside of my heart! Having faith in Him means also believing what He shows me and what He says to me, even what He says about me. He made me joyful & set me free when He showed me this, when He showed me myself and what He unlocks in me! I'm enclosed by flesh, set on sin. His wind can blow open & release the fountain that I am inside... I must believe Him that it's true, that to Him I'm a refreshing fountain, a cool flowing water to Him who loves me; He delights in me. Thank You, Jesus!
Jesus, if this is Your love, then have me! Only You can have me... I think I've failed all else, but if You love me this much, You have me. You alone, Jesus, amen.
# posted by Ramone @ 7:27 PM 
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